The First Dream

Last night was my first dream about the baby. I had a little baby girl! The dream was odd because in normal circumstances I would've been so stressed and freaking out (what I do best) but instead, I was just so obsessed with my little baby girl that I didn't care about anything else.

I had the little girl on January 18 (2 days before my birthday). I don't recall her having a name, just know when she was born. She was the most beautiful baby ever. She had gray eyes. I have no idea where she got those from, but they were amazingly beautiful. She just laid in my arms with a big smile on her face and eyes closed.

Then, I realized, I didn't have ANYTHING. I didnt' know how to do ANYTHING. Oddly enough, I didn't care like I normally would. The one thing that I was freaking out about was breast feeding. I was upset that I didn't read any books and that I didn't rub my nipples with a warm wash cloth. Yeah, weird - but the reason I dreamt this is because my coworker, Todd, was telling me that I need to prepare my nipples for breast feeding. I know, strange advice coming from a male co-worker, but he's so excited for me and loves telling me things about when his wife and daughter were pregnant. In my dream, I was frantically looking for books and asking people how to breast feed. I was determined that I was going to breast feed my little girl.

Today, I'm going to start reading all my fun books and will learn the tricks of getting my nipples ready. LOL!